Don't disappoint your progress.

**Don’t get too excited, FFS isn't Back… per se.

Something in my heart isn't ready to let it go, not too sure why, all i know its it is not time to let go... and as I embark on this new chapter in my life, i couldn't think of a better place to share this very special piece of my heart.

This pretty space has been my life line for the past 5 years, and so while I'm not sure what is going to happen to us here, in this space in the future, this is a peace of my heart. right here. right now.

An open letter to #Year25 Jesi Rae.

(Part I on DearJesiRae.com)**

... and in regard to your dreams, those wild and crazy dreams that make no sense. those dreams that poor Rachel has to her about in scattered bits and pieces throughout the day and into each night,

Chase them, All of them.

Every single one of them.

Knock on every door you see, no limitations, no hang ups, no fears.

You changed, and are different, and have a new foundation,

and that is ok. 

Because your dreams are an extension of Y O U, not your beliefs. 

Your past is a precious gem, it formed your soul, and built your character. &. Although you took a sharp right turn and beelined towards the forest, you are happy, and you are free; don't let this O N E thing about you that has changed, stop you from doing the things you have always wanted to do

(Yes, JG, we are touring together… at least once!… it’s happening.)

You know who you want to be [#GlamLife], you know what you want to do [for the most part.]

N O W is the time to do it.

NOW IS THE TIME TO DO IT!

N O W  I S  T H E  T I M E  T O  D O  I T ! ! ! 

because you have cowered down to the pressures of life and the ideals of success for too long!

You have lived inside of your head and although you claimed you were fearless, because you boldly declared your dreams, you are now on the other side of your foundation, deep in love with your new journey, with the courage to not only declare your dreams but fight and hold on unto you see them happen. - you now truly A R E fearless.

and as you sit thinking about the future, 

the fog doesn't scare you, and the blinding light excites you.

You have more power than you think.

Your life is yours to create, Trust the moment, and dive in!

Fun.Fab.SAVED!: A Swan song.

[The First "Brand Photo"]

I had no intention of sharing this. I planned to keep it off this pretty blog space and deep deep inside my cold tiny heart.

I had no intention of this ever being a thing, because honestly until now I didn't fully realize it was a thing.

I briefly mentioned it in a previous post, however here it is again.

I no longer identify as a christian.

and it's odd, because so much of, if not all of, everything I ever was and aspired to become was wrapped in the identity of faith. - every dream. every goal. every aspiration. every thought. every belief. every action was deeply rooted in my faith and my christianity. 

and truth be told, my future is a little cloudy without it; but it's not dark. My dreams are a little different, and I'm not sure of where I am going anymore, but I don't feel lost.

[first official Logo and banner. Thanks Jena. I love you forever wifey!]

There is not much I am sure of anymore but what I am sure of I am sure of.

and right now I am sure of one thing.

I cannot build a house on a dead foundation.

and guys let me tell you, the termites have chewed this foundation to rot.

and so I must say good bye.

I didn't think it would be a hard thing to do, but it is.

because I am saying goodbye, and not saying hello.

all my life in regards to my dreams I have always passed a baton, from one idea to the next.
and for the first time in my life I am running empty handed.

and as I run, I feel free. I feel alive. I feel love and I feel light.

and it's not a new feeling, but it's a different feeling.

[That time I wrote a book]

[and then on completely separate occasion I wrote another book]

So where does that leave me? and this blog? and..... us?

Well for me? Im still running, chasing, dreaming. as I will forever do.

this blog will remain active until nov 2015 but there will not be any more new content.

as for us...

[funfabsaved.blogspot.com - FIRST edition of the blog]

I love us. I cherish us. Us is the reason why I didn't want to make this a thing.

you made me strong. you helped me fight. you hugged me tight.

You've supported me. you've gleaned from me. you allowed me to learn from you.

You bring me so much joy.

and for everything you have done, I know I will never be able to repay. 

and I don't want to try. all I want to do in return for what you have given me is be the best verion of Jesi Rae I can possibly be. 

That will forever be my gift to you and to the world.

and that is why I must say good bye.
for now anyway.

The road is not ending though, it is just evolving.

The story not over, i'm just starting another book.

My heart isn't broken, it is strong. 

it is growing. expanding. exploding.

with love for you and excitement for my future. 

[As [fun, fab and saved] as it gets.]

and so,

To my fun and fabulous friends:

I cherish you. I will forever fondly remember this journey.

Thank You.

I Love You.

ever fun, ever fab, ever yours,

Jesi Rae

[Ryen Lynette Cooper for the real Og's]

Namaste.

[P.s: Follow me on twitter AND Instagram. *wink. hint*]

Oh My Gandhi...

I have not ever took a deeply vested interest in Mahatma Gandhi. I am fully aware of who he is, I'm just vaguely aware of what he did but somehow, my natural inclination is to quote him without my knowledge because yes, people, I am THAT insightful.

Over the past few weeks [Read: the entire year] I have immersed myself in all things William Washington James Haynes. I dove deep into the archive, unearthed some gems and have learned, studied and drowned in him. His artistry. His talent. His face. 

Those. God-Damn. Lips.

[How many times can I say things like “i wanna kiss him so badly on the mouth” & "enter me." before its considered harassment?] 

[Photo Cred: YogaRacheal.com || Instagram: @YogaRacheal || SHE IS FABULOUS! She is my Queen! Donate to her GoFundMe] [Enhance your body, enhance your mind.]

A significant part of Haynes life has been influenced by Mahatma Gandhi; From his politics, to his nose. Haynes does not shy away from exhorting his appreciation for this good man's legacy. Yet, throughout the corridors of his platforms you can hear the echo of 7 people. I don't know why it is only seven, but there are always 7 people. Probably the same 7 people that like to ‘remind’ Haynes that Gandhi was a racist, and teaching James Tiberius Haynes to hold him in such a high regard would be foolish; also Martin King was a communist for Soviet Russia. - Ok, not actually the last part but that is something I imagine The Big Seven would say.

It made me wonder though, WAS Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi ‘a racist, fascist, Hitler loving Perv’? 

[that is literally the title of an article I just read]

Then I pondered on why it even mattered.

Why is it so important for these character flaws to be exposed, [even] long after he has passed from this life?

Why must people be without flaw, in order to be looked up to, and/or held in high regard?

but I researched it anyway, And as one does, I went to the library.

I'm Just kidding. I can’t afford a library card.

Turns out, Mahatma Ghandi was not, after all, without flaw.

He lived as a human man for 78 years.

Yes, Gandhi did some not so nice things and said some not so nice words.

But he also did some very nice things and said some very nice words.

Which made me further wonder:

Why must we see others flaws before we grant them their humanity?

Namaste.