When it's all said and done.

A whole month.
30 days.
720 hours.

That's how long it's been.

in loving memory of 'Chasing kite tails" - Rae, Thank you are for being YOU - in ways you will NEVER understand - you saved my life. (also, thanks for the pic from when you wrote on funfabsaved.com)

The words in my heart, the thoughts shared across this pretty blog space, the pitter patter of my sweet soul have been still. have been quiet. have been resting. - & i have felt every moment. and every moment was good.

and i wish this "comeback" was full of stories and experiences and adventure, proof that i was away from this blog, away from my dream, away from you my fun and fabulous friends for a reason. a balls-to-the-walls, out-of-this-world, can't-believe-those-dudes-in-the-furnace-aren't-burning! what-in-the-world-is-going-on? reason.

but the stillness and the quiet and the rest doesn't always come that way, a lot of times, the stillness and the quiet and the rest, is just that... Still & Quiet. not driven by thrill, glamour or preconceived notions of miracles. and while the excitement is nice, Great even, it's good, often necessary for the still to be still. because the whispers of Jesus are still and his declarations of love are quiet. and his hugs, OH how he hugs, they bring rest.

and to be completely honest, I [Kind of] wish things were more exciting, so that I can indeed come back to you with stories and adventures galore. However, I am glad they weren't because the still and the quiet and the rest pushed me,  forced me to bask in the freedom that Christ has given me. The PURE JOY he has placed deep within the depths of my single, unfulfilled dreams, still-at-home, desperate for adventure soul. because oh how sweet this joy that breeds freedom is. the freedom that doesn't feel like freedom because it is't glamorously striking envy in the hearts of those around me. because it's easy, it's simple. and that goes against every grain of wisdom our society pushed into our hearts. freedom that doesn't feel like freedom because while i look around at all the reasons i shouldn't be peaceful, content, happy.

I can't help but smile because [grace] Jesus is Good and life is ok, always he's been ok, and will always be ok.