Fun.Fab.SAVED!: A Swan song.

[The First "Brand Photo"]

I had no intention of sharing this. I planned to keep it off this pretty blog space and deep deep inside my cold tiny heart.

I had no intention of this ever being a thing, because honestly until now I didn't fully realize it was a thing.

I briefly mentioned it in a previous post, however here it is again.

I no longer identify as a christian.

and it's odd, because so much of, if not all of, everything I ever was and aspired to become was wrapped in the identity of faith. - every dream. every goal. every aspiration. every thought. every belief. every action was deeply rooted in my faith and my christianity. 

and truth be told, my future is a little cloudy without it; but it's not dark. My dreams are a little different, and I'm not sure of where I am going anymore, but I don't feel lost.

[first official Logo and banner. Thanks Jena. I love you forever wifey!]

There is not much I am sure of anymore but what I am sure of I am sure of.

and right now I am sure of one thing.

I cannot build a house on a dead foundation.

and guys let me tell you, the termites have chewed this foundation to rot.

and so I must say good bye.

I didn't think it would be a hard thing to do, but it is.

because I am saying goodbye, and not saying hello.

all my life in regards to my dreams I have always passed a baton, from one idea to the next.
and for the first time in my life I am running empty handed.

and as I run, I feel free. I feel alive. I feel love and I feel light.

and it's not a new feeling, but it's a different feeling.

[That time I wrote a book]

[and then on completely separate occasion I wrote another book]

So where does that leave me? and this blog? and..... us?

Well for me? Im still running, chasing, dreaming. as I will forever do.

this blog will remain active until nov 2015 but there will not be any more new content.

as for us...

[funfabsaved.blogspot.com - FIRST edition of the blog]

I love us. I cherish us. Us is the reason why I didn't want to make this a thing.

you made me strong. you helped me fight. you hugged me tight.

You've supported me. you've gleaned from me. you allowed me to learn from you.

You bring me so much joy.

and for everything you have done, I know I will never be able to repay. 

and I don't want to try. all I want to do in return for what you have given me is be the best verion of Jesi Rae I can possibly be. 

That will forever be my gift to you and to the world.

and that is why I must say good bye.
for now anyway.

The road is not ending though, it is just evolving.

The story not over, i'm just starting another book.

My heart isn't broken, it is strong. 

it is growing. expanding. exploding.

with love for you and excitement for my future. 

[As [fun, fab and saved] as it gets.]

and so,

To my fun and fabulous friends:

I cherish you. I will forever fondly remember this journey.

Thank You.

I Love You.

ever fun, ever fab, ever yours,

Jesi Rae

[Ryen Lynette Cooper for the real Og's]

Namaste.

[P.s: Follow me on twitter AND Instagram. *wink. hint*]