.The Broken Dam.

Sometimes I cry.

By nature, I'm not a crier, for tears are weakness, also they are pointless.

but still, sometimes i cry.

I see no growth through being over emotional, and tears get you no where.

yet sometimes i cry.

Lately crying is all I do, It's like 20+ years of not crying at all has built up and the dam holding my pride in tact has broken and released a waterfall from my face to the pages of my journal where I open my soul and beg and plead with no avail for a break through, from a God that promised me so much yet I see so little.

Sometimes I cry.

Becasue when I cry, I show a side no human has ever seen. I open my true self to the God who daily proves his love for me and gave up everything including his life to save me.

When I cry I don't cut. I don't binge. I don't purge. I don't restict.

When I cry I don't doubt, and question and curse my existence.

When i cry I don't wish I was never born, nor do I plot to reverse the life I've been given.

When I cry, I dont chase money, attention, or acceptance.

Sometimes I cry, becasue when I cry I heal.

When I cry I show a side of me a human has never seen, I open my true self to the God who daily proves his love for me and gave up everything, including his life to save me.

Sometimes I cry, because even though everything isn't perfect, my salvation makes it worth it.

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